Let’s take another example where your partner comes home late from work. Here, again, it is completely valid to be upset – but if you find yourself feeling taken for granted or rejected, it’s probably time to introspect and trace where this comes from.
Many a time the look inward and the ability to notice a pattern comes after several failed relationships. In effect, every conflict is an opportunity to look inward and to be mindful of your buttons, and to find out how you can remove them or stop them from exerting such a control over your life. Relationships can be the path to transformation in that sense because it gives you the opportunity to identify your buttons, understand them – and if you’re lucky – remove them. You also have to understand that just as your partner is pushing your buttons, you are pushing his/hers as well, and so if you find them angry or upset with you it is easier to bear if you consider that you are only partly to blame.
Our partners have the power not only to show us our buttons, but also to change them. Let’s take a situation where you have felt rejected as a child, and you find yourself reacting strongly to your partner when he/she comes home late. You have begun to realise that your strong reaction comes from the past. At times like this, try talking to your partner about it and communicating to them clearly that you would like it if they tried to convey reassurance in some way, in case you do feel rejected by him/her what they can say to make you feel better. For example, saying, ‘I’m here and I’m not going anywhere’ is more effective for conveying reassurance than, ‘I had extra work at office’.
Similarly if your partner were also to reflect, he/she may be also able to tell you what they would like you to do so that a conflict does not feel like a disappointment in them. Over time the need for this type of reassurance reduces and the buttons gradually fade away.
If we look at relationships as a chance to genuinely grow, the question is not whether the relationship will last or not, but whether you are willing to let it bring up parts of you that you don’t like, and let it transform you.